No no, you can stay for a little while if you'd like.
[In fact being alone has mostly resulted in him staring at a wall or ceiling and hating every decision he's ever made when attempting to read becomes tiring, so this is a nice distraction from that at the moment.]
Hmm? Oh... I guess I like roses as much as anyone else does. I also think tulips are nice though... I read somewhere once that they're the kind you can give someone when you want to compliment their eyes.
[... Yeah, that's it, that's literally the only reason he likes them aside from how they look.]
Who, me? [At that, he laughs for some reason.] No way, my eyes are not complimentary--if anyone should be getting bouquets of tulips, I'd think it should be you, given how much more interesting your eyes are by comparison.
[Danny considers for a moment, before he decides he doesn't really have much left to lose at this point as he brings his right hand up to his right eye.]
Well, the truth is that I've always only had one working eye, ever since the day I was born. For whatever reason, my right one here just never developed. As a result, I've never known what it's like to be able to see with two eyes, and have had to hide my empty right eye with glass, or with an eye-patch when I was a kid and couldn't really afford any glass ones to use.
[There's more to it from here, but he'll start there and see what Grimm does with this information before he continues.]
Ha, of course. That, and having had a normal way of being treated growing up, depending on who you ask.
[Because he is certain that life would not have been as cruel, if he had not been born with this mistake.]
Back then... most people didn't take kindly to it. Other children would frequently beat me up when I went outside, or the neighbors would loudly gossip about how my mother shouldn't have given birth to me, if I was going to be an existence that embarrassed them like this. Even my father used to tell me that no one would want me around in comparison to other people, because my lack of an eye made me less useful than those with two eyes.
[An old memory comes to mind, remembering his initial excitement as a child thinking that he could use this chance to help other people with eye problems if he became an opthamologist... before his father shut it down by saying no one would hire a doctor with only one eye for that, sparking another fight between him and his mother.]
The only person who treated me kindly was my mother... but even then, she was very unhappy with it, constantly fighting with my father and other neighbors for their treatment of me, and being seen as a pariah by those blaming her as if it was somehow her fault as well that I was born with only one eye.
People are cruel. Particularly children. But your father saying such is inexcusable.
[As a parent, Grimm takes particular offense to parents who should love and support their children treating them like so much trash. It's an unfortunately recurring issue for him.]
... He wasn't necessarily wrong, about that: I probably am less useful in comparison to those with two eyes, who can see things that I might miss or am otherwise incapable of noticing.
[Even if he does appreciate the sentiment otherwise, Grimm.
Danny rests his chin on his good hand here for a moment, considering.]
Come to think of it, aside from that, I don't really remember much about him. I don't think I can even recall what he looks like now--what I do remember, aside from his words, is that he eventually left my mother and I and never came back, so in the end it is probably for the best that I don't have any memories of him worth reflecting upon. Even if, by comparison, my mother didn't take his disappearance as well as I did... in fact, she became very sick as a result of it.
[Danny can't exactly stop him from doing that given that moving that arm causes an undesirable amount of pain, so he allows it, even if Danny still doesn't seem to think that an apology is warranted: it is what it is, after all.]
It wasn't really that bad though, at first. I mean... even if my mother didn't talk to me, she was someone who would still look at me when no one else would, at least. In that regard, I couldn't help but wonder if maybe everyone was just jealous, that they didn't have beautiful eyes like hers, and that I would be gifted with at least one of them, let alone any.
[... Granted, his mother was in a serious depression and it's debatable if she ever looked at him so much as "happened to be staring at the spot he was standing in", but Danny doesn't care. He still loved her no matter what...]
... She's dead now, though. Committed suicide not too long after, so I guess in the end it wasn't enough. [Danny wasn't enough.] My eye killed her, in a way, as I'm certain that this series of misfortunes would not have happened for her if I had been normal.
[Or maybe not even born at all. A lot of people would probably still be alive in that scenario as well.]
[It's an awful story of a family torn apart by circumstances outside of anyone's control. A sad story made sadder by the way Danny says 'it wasn't that bad'.]
I am deeply sorry for your loss. And I apologize if you have been wounded by anything I said.
What? No, you--you haven't said anything worth worrying about.
[... Except for the really nice stuff that makes Danny think that you definitely deserve better than liking someone like him, but he's not going to say so.]
But... thank you, regardless, for listening. You're one of the few people I've actually talked to about them.
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Date: 2020-04-07 03:55 pm (UTC)[Maybe he'll even put in the effort to care for them rather than forgetting and letting them die next to his awful couch, ha ha.]
I see you also brought a card?
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Date: 2020-04-07 03:57 pm (UTC)[Inside it's signed by Grimm, with the message 'wishing for your speedy recovery'.]
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Date: 2020-04-07 04:02 pm (UTC)This is a lovely card, Grimm. Thank you.
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Date: 2020-04-07 04:03 pm (UTC)Of course, my friend.
Would you like company, or would you prefer to be left alone to rest?
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Date: 2020-04-07 04:08 pm (UTC)[In fact being alone has mostly resulted in him staring at a wall or ceiling and hating every decision he's ever made when attempting to read becomes tiring, so this is a nice distraction from that at the moment.]
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Date: 2020-04-07 04:10 pm (UTC)[He's pretty sure he knows how to make coffee, probably...]
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Date: 2020-04-07 04:14 pm (UTC)[Thankfully his coffee maker is a pretty simple one so Grimm shouldn't have any trouble getting it to work for him.]
Please feel free to make some for yourself as well if you want.
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Date: 2020-04-07 04:16 pm (UTC)[Getting up to go work the coffee maker... This seems simple enough.]
What is your favorite flower?
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Date: 2020-04-07 04:25 pm (UTC)[... Yeah, that's it, that's literally the only reason he likes them aside from how they look.]
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Date: 2020-04-07 04:45 pm (UTC)[gay]
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Date: 2020-04-07 05:07 pm (UTC)Who, me? [At that, he laughs for some reason.] No way, my eyes are not complimentary--if anyone should be getting bouquets of tulips, I'd think it should be you, given how much more interesting your eyes are by comparison.
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Date: 2020-04-07 10:43 pm (UTC)[Grimm's eyes are closer to normal where he's from, of course.]
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Date: 2020-04-10 04:57 pm (UTC)My one working eye, sure, but the other... not so much. It's been nothing but a burden to have.
[There's a pause as he finds himself looking up at the ceiling for a moment, before he says--]
Did I ever tell you? Why I have this eye to begin with?
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Date: 2020-04-10 10:52 pm (UTC)[Unspoken: I'm listening if you want to share it now.]
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Date: 2020-04-11 06:39 pm (UTC)[Danny considers for a moment, before he decides he doesn't really have much left to lose at this point as he brings his right hand up to his right eye.]
Well, the truth is that I've always only had one working eye, ever since the day I was born. For whatever reason, my right one here just never developed. As a result, I've never known what it's like to be able to see with two eyes, and have had to hide my empty right eye with glass, or with an eye-patch when I was a kid and couldn't really afford any glass ones to use.
[There's more to it from here, but he'll start there and see what Grimm does with this information before he continues.]
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Date: 2020-04-12 03:49 am (UTC)You are not missing much, save some depth perception.
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Date: 2020-04-12 04:46 pm (UTC)[Because he is certain that life would not have been as cruel, if he had not been born with this mistake.]
Back then... most people didn't take kindly to it. Other children would frequently beat me up when I went outside, or the neighbors would loudly gossip about how my mother shouldn't have given birth to me, if I was going to be an existence that embarrassed them like this. Even my father used to tell me that no one would want me around in comparison to other people, because my lack of an eye made me less useful than those with two eyes.
[An old memory comes to mind, remembering his initial excitement as a child thinking that he could use this chance to help other people with eye problems if he became an opthamologist... before his father shut it down by saying no one would hire a doctor with only one eye for that, sparking another fight between him and his mother.]
The only person who treated me kindly was my mother... but even then, she was very unhappy with it, constantly fighting with my father and other neighbors for their treatment of me, and being seen as a pariah by those blaming her as if it was somehow her fault as well that I was born with only one eye.
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Date: 2020-04-12 11:04 pm (UTC)[As a parent, Grimm takes particular offense to parents who should love and support their children treating them like so much trash. It's an unfortunately recurring issue for him.]
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Date: 2020-04-16 07:23 pm (UTC)[Even if he does appreciate the sentiment otherwise, Grimm.
Danny rests his chin on his good hand here for a moment, considering.]
Come to think of it, aside from that, I don't really remember much about him. I don't think I can even recall what he looks like now--what I do remember, aside from his words, is that he eventually left my mother and I and never came back, so in the end it is probably for the best that I don't have any memories of him worth reflecting upon. Even if, by comparison, my mother didn't take his disappearance as well as I did... in fact, she became very sick as a result of it.
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Date: 2020-04-17 03:13 am (UTC)[There's very little to say about that. He knows that having a parent you have mixed emotions about can be harder than simply not having one.
He reaches to take Danny's other hand gently and squeeze it.]
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Date: 2020-04-18 08:43 pm (UTC)It wasn't really that bad though, at first. I mean... even if my mother didn't talk to me, she was someone who would still look at me when no one else would, at least. In that regard, I couldn't help but wonder if maybe everyone was just jealous, that they didn't have beautiful eyes like hers, and that I would be gifted with at least one of them, let alone any.
[... Granted, his mother was in a serious depression and it's debatable if she ever looked at him so much as "happened to be staring at the spot he was standing in", but Danny doesn't care. He still loved her no matter what...]
... She's dead now, though. Committed suicide not too long after, so I guess in the end it wasn't enough. [Danny wasn't enough.] My eye killed her, in a way, as I'm certain that this series of misfortunes would not have happened for her if I had been normal.
[Or maybe not even born at all. A lot of people would probably still be alive in that scenario as well.]
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Date: 2020-04-18 09:40 pm (UTC)I am deeply sorry for your loss. And I apologize if you have been wounded by anything I said.
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Date: 2020-04-18 10:38 pm (UTC)[... Except for the really nice stuff that makes Danny think that you definitely deserve better than liking someone like him, but he's not going to say so.]
But... thank you, regardless, for listening. You're one of the few people I've actually talked to about them.
[His parents, he means.]
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Date: 2020-04-18 10:50 pm (UTC)[Imagine not listening to Danny, when it could ease his burden even a little. Impossible.]
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Date: 2020-04-18 11:48 pm (UTC)[He wouldn't actually know though, given his "friends" back home were people like... Cathy... before he started having actual good friends here.]
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